I'm so sorry for your loss. Where do you live that your brother wasn't taken to a hospital? Was he in hospice care? I'm not judging you or your parents I'm just genuinely curious. In 1986, I was 16, just a year older than you and I can't imagine going through what you did. Honestly if I knew I was going to read something this sad I would have skipped your site. I'm just getting ready to go to bed and now I'm not sure if I can sleep.May Neeraj rest in peace!
Sorry to have made you sad Shelly. When I set out on this challenge, I told myself that I'd write whatever came to me without editing out difficult pieces. I haven't written about my brother ever since he passed away. It just happened a few days ago, somehow. He was at home because the doctors had given up 'medical' hope. Maybe, one day I will write more or maybe this was enough to put it to rest. Thank you for your concern. I sincerely hope you are able to sleep.
Hugs AAarti, can feel the pain , raw as ever. Some pains dont go away, do they? its a lie, tears and more hugs
Thank you Erica. love the hugs. xx
Peace my friend, deep peace. hugs xx
Thanks April. xx
I am so sorry you lost your brother so young.
Re: a comment above, I am reminded of lines from a song "and I feel like I'm naked in front of a crowd, because these words in my diary are screaming out loud and I know that you'll use them, however you want to."I have been going back and forth between wanting to say something and wanting the something to be "right". Responding to powerful and life-altering experiences is difficult and I can only imagine how much courage it would have taken to write and publish this post. I love you and admire you even more. I did not know this was possible.
Thanks for these lines Shweta. I think I'm familiar with the sound of the 'shouting' words in a diary. I love you, too. xx
Very touching and painful.Admire your courage and strength to handle this painful and claustrophobic situation at a very young age of 15.Tight hug to you.
Hugs are so welcome, and I love the tight ones best:) xx
This made me shiver. (((Hugs)))
Thank you for the hugs:)
I kept on postponing reading this since you messaged me. I knew I'll cry..and so I did. Being a mother myself now...don't know how mummy handled it. There was no support system to help families bear the loss. I miss my dear brother....he was so full of life. Just found out that he shared his birthday with Barack Obama! I wonder....
love you Seema. xx
Hugs Arti. Sending you love. This wouldn't have been easy to write. I wish your Mother peace.
Thank you Vidya.
Oh Arti, this seared my soul... feel your pain ....sending you lots of love and hugs.keep writing....
Thanks Ketaki... receiving your love with gratitude. xx
I'm so sorry for your loss. This was a beautifully written piece and it touched me on so many levels. I applaud your bravery for writing about something so personalDebbie
Thank you Debbie.
Wow. Deeply touching, and beautifully, powerfully said.@TarkabarkaHolgy from The Multicolored Diary MopDog
Arti: Time helps but does not always heal. All you can do is try and remember the good times. And know that Neeraj is in a good place. Big hug - FatRadioMan
Thank you Raj. Hugs always help:)
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